7 months later thoughts. :)

Well, I don’t know if you’ve noticed but I haven’t blogged in 7 months. 

And it’s kind of an awkward place to begin. Well, it’s awkward to try and figure out what to write.

Here are things that I’ve been thinking/have been going on. 

Illustration by Anna Bond of Rifle Paper Co.

After a solid year of long distance somehow I get to live near my boyfriend now. It’s magical and warm and fuzzy and an adjustment--in the best way. I love having him to hang around with. He is so sweet and supportive and what-you-see-is-what-you-get. His presence in my life makes me a better person. For sure. It starts with just illuminating the parts of me that need to grow. 

I’ve never been so cognizant of my own need for growth. Don’t confuse that for self-loathing or something. This is an accurate, unemotional knowledge that my natural, first inclination is to do whatever I like. And sometimes--no, maybe all the time--the most rewarding, best, most honorable thing to do is the total opposite. And it might even make you happier than you thought the thing you so wanted to do did. This is stuff I’m chewing on these days...

It’s been a year and a half since I performed in a musical really, really. I miss it so. What’s wrooong with me? Most people stop doing that by age 12 and don’t miss it. Why does soaring music and touching storytelling mean so much to me? Why do I so passionately love something that I will probably never make a decent living doing? What then, bright-eyed millenials?!

I’m still in love with the internet. Maybe more than ever. I think I could qualify as a Twitter evangelist. Never in the history of the world have we been privy to so much knowledge at our fingertips. You there, with your computer, can learn about virtually anything you want today, with that. That’s inSANE. What kind of privilege/responsibility is that?! Aren’t we supposed to be doing something remarkable and world-changing with this kind of tool?

What am I doing to leave the world better than I found it? 

2012 is off to an unusual start. I think this will be a great year. A year of growth, maturity, goals being reached, milestones achieved, celebrations, and love. 

Don’t forget: you’re living your story.